Updated: Nov 8
And He Said:
Naked I came from my mother’s womb, And naked shall I return there. The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away; Blessed be the name of the Lord. Job 1:21
Praise the Lord Jesus, All the glory to HIM because without HIM I would have not been able to make it through that storm. All along he was with me during the time my mother ended up in the hospital with Covid.
I was suffering and I had so many fears. My heart was crushed (Psalm 34:18). My mother spent thirty days in the hospital and I was only able to speak to her twice. I didn’t know where I was headed, My life began to fall apart with one loss following another. I didn’t have time to fully recover from one wave of grief before another hit. I began to believe GOD turned away from me. I felt like I had fallen because I was so weak. I was so scared for my mom because she was not saved.
During those difficult times I remember hearing dark voices speak - "And you preach JESUS to everyone". I was so angry with GOD, I remember asking GOD, why He was allowing this. But there was no response.
I remembered the story of Job. He lost everything including his children and he continued to praise GOD. But as for me, I wasn’t there yet. I was angry and I was losing faith in HIM.
I remember the day my mother ended up in the hospital I went to sleep so early because I felt so weak. That day after falling asleep I woke up two hours later and sat on my bed and GOD spoke to me. "Go to your mother’s room and pray". After hearing GOD'S voice, everything started turning.
I began to cry and pour out my heart to HIM. I was filled so much happiness that I knew not only does GOD love me, HE also loved my mother and HE wanted her to be saved. I hoped that she was going to live - only if it was HIS will.
For thirty days the LORD woke me up to pray in mom’s room. On the thirtieth day she passed away. I know she is with JESUS.
During this journey GOD made me realize I was just thinking about myself. Since that time, HE has empowered my prayer life.
My mom was in the hospital at the same time my daughter was giving birth to twins (Noah & Jacob).
All the glory to GOD. I know HE is with me and you no matter the situation. Now I know that as long as we have faith, we have nothing to fear.